Do I look 30 to you?

Happy birthday to me. So far, just another day. I don't know what I was expecting. It seems like such a grown-up age. I certainly don't feel like a grown-up most days. A grown-up has their shit together, right? I feel like I may be getting closer, but it hasn't happened yet. Every year of my life gets better and better. I should be happy about another year coming, looking forward to everything that will happen. I am feeling kind of meloncholy. Hubby was so happy when he turned 30--he can hardly wait for 40. I want to stay 29 just a while longer. I like that number better. It looks better to me. I feel more 29 than I do 30.