Your Backyard Friends

If you have small children, you probably already know what this post is about. Yep. The Backyardigans. This show is a favourite of Charlotte's, and my admiration for the writers is growing. At first glance, the show is about a group of kids who use their imaginations to create elaborate stories in their giant shared suburban backyard.

Upon closer inspection (with your music nerd glasses on) you see that this is a great show to introduce kids to different genres of music and dance.

We have been watching The Underwater Adventure DVD a lot lately and now my kids have an understanding of how Bollywood Musicals work thanks to some mermaids and Cousteau-esqe submariners. We moved into old-skool hiphop with some Coast Guard rescuers and then went back to the classics with a ballet dancing entemologist. I love seeing the characters bust out real dance moves. I also love that since Charlotte has been in ballet and tap lessons she is now dancing along with the characters.

Polka Palace Party is another favourite of mine. Uniqua's ode to her clarinet makes me giggle every time I hear it.

I also like how they don't shove the lessons down the kid's throats like they do on Little Einstiens (another show that we watch a lot) Of course, that in your face style of teaching does sink in. One day Charlotte was running through the house and telling me she was going allegro!

So what is my point? Do you watch what your kids watch? Do you really pay attention? You might be pleasantly surprised. (On the other hand, you might be shocked and appalled too. I sat down and watched a Land Before Time video once. I won't allow it in my house anymore. Those dinosaurs do not teach lessons I want my kids to learn--follow the crowd, listen to your friends instead of your parents, do whatever you need to do to fit in with the cool kids......)

What is in your DVD player right now?

Hello again!

Well, it feels like I have been neglecting this blog. We have been battling a stomach bug this past week--it moved from child to child very systematically. This is not blogworthy conversation. Do you really need to know that I spent part of yesterday morning scraping dried vomit off of Emmett's bedroom wall? Didn't think so. My washing machine and dryer have been my steady and loyal companions through the nastiness. As has the new Go! Diego! Go! DVD we have.

I started feeling queasy yesterday. I feel fine today. I guess I didn't catch the bug, but instead caught a severe case of being grossed out from dealing with the constant stream of yuck the kids have been giving me this week.

I tried to think of why this is so gross now, given my previous profession. I just realized. I NEVER had to wash the pukey blankets at the hospital. I have no problem cleaning up pukey people, but cleaning up bedding and pyjamas was not my job. I would do a quick mop up (usually by pushing a towel around on the floor with my foot) and then drop all the ickiness in a hamper that got carried away by some saint in the maintenance department.

I ventured out to buy more laundry detergent yesterday and as I was loading the van the cap came off the bottle and spilled all over the parking spot next to mine. Sigh. I am glad that it happened in the parking lot and not my van, I guess. I am also glad that the lady at customer service didn't have a problem with replacing my empty bottle with a full one. (I bought the 96 load bottle--that was a LOT of detergent to spill.)

So there you go. Maybe now that everyone is healthy again I can get back to writing about more interesting stuff. How about that school in New Brunswick that stopped playing our National Anthem?? Or the new octuplets that were born in California? Oh yeah, and didn't something really big happen to the South of us? Didn't some guy get a new job?? Even Emmett knows about that! He watched the inauguration in his classroom at school.

What's been on your mind lately?

Tangents

Tangent #1:

Well, sometimes if you ask for something, you get it.

Last week we were the coldest place on earth. My yarn froze solid for four days. It is now back in the house, safe and warm, with no further signs of you know whats. On an even brighter note, I called the company that sold me the yarn that started all of this and they are sending me a replacement ball for free! So I am here to tell you that if you need affordable yarn and are a fan of natural fibers, call Knitpicks. Their customer service is second to none. It all starts when a friendly PERSON answers the phone, not a robot and ends with you, the customer not feeling frustrated and annoyed. Their birch knitting needles are beautiful and once you have held them in your hands, your cheapo Susan Bates and Boye needles that were just fine before all of a sudden are hopelessly inadequate.

I did find evidence of you know whats in a really expensive hand dyed hank of yarn that was in long term storage in my basement. When you eat my Fleece Artist, I get a little testy. I broke out the poison--I will let them have a week of the vapours and then I will take it out, but oh man was that upsetting!!!!

Tangent #2

Charlotte made up a song last week. It has been firmly stuck in my brain ever since.
(Sung to the tune of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star)

Crackers crackers in my soup
Crackers crackers in my soup
Crackers crackers in my soup
Crackers crackers in my soup
(repeat until you run out of breath)

Ifyoudontlikecrackersinyoursoup
Don't come to my restaurant

I couldn't figure out where she got the last line from, but then I remembered:

It starts at the 3:00 minute mark. I watched this as a little girl and my parents sang it to me so of course I sing it to my kids now.

Tangent #3:

I updated my woefully ignored food blog last week. If you need a new lunch idea or are curious about my latest Handy Housewife Hint, head on over!

Tangent #4.

I am having a great time visiting with a friend who is visiting from Up North with her kids. Yesterday I took the boys to her hotel and we swam in the giant pool. (Char was a little under the weather, so she stayed home) Today we are taking our crew (My three and her four) to the giant indoor playground in my city.

Tangent #5.

This is a strange game that is oddly compelling. Emmett found it at the free game site he frequents. The music and graphics remind me of the Playstation Game Katamari Demacy, which is also strange and oddly compelling. Don't worry. The game is not violent and there are no inappropriate images or themes, so feel free to click on the link with kids in the room.

Doeo Touch all of the Doeos quickly as you can.

Play this free game now!!

Trying to Look on the Bright Side.

This weekend I sat on my couch and worked on knitting a legwarmer for myself. I soldiered through 9 mind-numbing inches of 2 x 2 ribbing to get to the cake: delicious, textural cables.

I needed a new ball a few rows into the charts. As I reached for a new ball, I noticed the yarn looked a bit frayed a few inches from the end, so I joined the new ball well past the broken bit. I knitted a few more rounds, squinting at charts--this pattern requires you to keep track of two charts at the same time to maintain the pattern. I noticed another frayed bit in my yarn. I let it slide. It was only a little broken so I figured it might just be a bad spot in the yarn. Another, quite badly broken spot came up.

I put down the knitting and the charts to asses what I should do. Rip back to a good spot, break the yarn and rejoin the ball past the broken spot? It seemed like the easiest thing to do. I unrolled my ball a bit and every few inches found frayed ends. I poked my fingers in and dug around. More broken plies. Now I was getting worried. This is a telltale sign of moth infestation.

I walked across the room to the drawer I stored the yarn in. I picked up another ball of yarn that looked like it had sawdust on it (not uncommon in the entertainment unit Hubby built) The sawdust was stuck to the yarn. Uh oh. I couldn't find what was stuck to my yarn on Google, but I am assuming the worst. Moths. More Googling.

My plan of attack is the freeze/thaw method of abatement. Freeze my yarn to kill any live bugs and force eggs into hibernation. Thaw my yarn to get the eggs to hatch, and then freeze again to kill the newly born babies. Repeat. (Harsh, I know. I feel no remorse)

I feel dirty. Violated. I wonder if my knitting friends will still speak to me and knit with me. Are moths contaigous?

Bright side you ask? There is a bright side to taking your stash away for a week, including all current works in progress?

• It gave me the opportunity to sort my yarn. Everything is outside in baggies, sorted by weight and project.
• I looked at and put my hands on every work in progress I have. A good reality check.
• I vacuumed some nooks and crannies that don't normally get vacuumed.

I checked my basement stash. It has been sealed in plastic bins with lavender sachets so it (touch cedar) seems ok. That is a relief.

Now, what do I do? I have five projects in baggies outside. I have Vest-uary coming up in February. Should I cast on something from the basement stash to bide my time with this week? I don't think I can quit cold turkey.

For My Mom.

Look what Charlotte pulled out of her closet! (For those of you who aren't related to me, these are dresses I used to wear when I was her size)

Clothing Wars.

To paraphrase Amanda Priestly from The Devil Wears Prada: Am I asking too much? Am I reaching for the stars here?

Charlotte has recently decided she will not wear jeans anymore. She calls them "hard pants" and finds them uncomfortable to play in. This wouldn't be such a big deal if it was May or June when she made this declaration. She instead decided this in December, during a cold snap. She essentially eliminated half of her wardrobe from circulation. I went shopping.

I started at Zeller's. I found some woven cotton elastic waist pants. I thought they looked a little low in the rise, but decided to give them a try (they were buy one pair, get one pair free) Charlotte tried them on and they mostly fit. She wore a pair to playgroup the next day and they would not stay up over her little derriere. They are pretty much unwearable. I lost the receipt. Anyone need some brand new pants, size 4, with tags?

I made my way to the Walsmart. The friend I went with was infinitely patient as I combed the racks for non-jean pants that I thought were appropriate. What is appropriate? Well.......

• Regular rise
• No licenced characters (eg, Hillary Duff, Hannah Montana, High School Musical........) They are not paying me to advertise, and most of the stuff is pretty ugly anyway.
• Adjustable waist, or soft elastic waist
• No cuffs on the sweats (looks sloppy)
• No writing on the bum
  
• Washable

I ended up with two pairs of pants. One pair of boot cut sweats and some soft woven cargoes that will need Char to wear tights underneath to stay warm in.

I am thankful tunics and leggings seem to be the style for Spring. Charlotte and I will both be happy then.

Out of the mouths of babes......

Emmett and Charlotte were playing together this afternoon--I saw bits of Charlotte's tea set out. Emmett told her to go make him some supper. She said no. He said "But it's your JOB to make me supper!"

Where did he get that from?????

I guess it is time to have a little chat about gender stereotypes, and the changing roles of men and women in the house.

I should probably get Richard to cook dinner for me, just for good measure.


(When pressed, Emmett wouldn't tell us why he thought it was Charlotte's job to cook him supper. When pressed further he said he didn't know how to say. )

Slices of Life.

Emmett practices his singing--he only really knows one song.




Char loves to sing!


Oh, and we noticed Matthew's hair was getting in his eyes. I decided it was time for a haircut. I got out my trusty clippers. I chose the wrong blade guard. Once you start you can't stop, though. Little kid hair grows quickly, right????

Happy New Year!

Well here we are, on the first day of 2009. We don't make a big deal of New Year's Eve around here. I feel like the real start of the new year is September anyway.

Southern Americans believe that you must eat black eyed peas on New Year's Day to ensure prosperity for the coming year. Cabbage is good to eat as well. (Both symbolize money and wealth)

I don't have any black eyed peas in the house. Do you think listening to them will have the same effect?

Lessons Learned from Hosting The Big Dinner.

I hope everyone is having a great Holiday.

This year saw the most chaotic Christmas Mornings in our house to date. Once the kids got a taste for wrapping paper, they kind of went crazy. Like sharks go crazy when a bucket of chum is poured into the water. I tried to run into the fray to gather up paper and find pieces to teeny toys, but I almost lost my arm a couple of times.

Needless to say, we are very blessed and based on the stack of presents from family, very much loved.

I hosted The Big Dinner for Richard's Mom, Sister, Aunt, Uncle and Cousin. I learned that a cold turkey adds an hour to cooking time. I also learned that if you have a box of cheesy puff pastry appetizers in your freezer, no one cares if dinner is an hour late. Wine helps too.

I tried out a couple of new recipes that were hits. I even got the ultimate compliment: Richard's Aunt (a fabulous Christmas cook) asked for a recipe. Scalloped corn. Try it. You won't be disappointed! Don't even wait for Christmas. I can see this as a fantastic side to ham. Richard made a delicious apple pie from a recipe my friend Ashlee gave me. I also think that Richard will be asked to bring his Rum Cake with him to every family gathering now. That was the thing that people kept picking at over coffee, even though they were stuffed from everything else my table was groaning under.

I will share recipes soon. Right now I have a toy store to fit into Emmett and Charlotte's room.

Merry Christmas!!!

Well, here we are on Christmas Eve. Emmett has been tracking Santa's progress via the NORAD website, (shhhh don't tell him he is learning world geography at the same time) Richard is in the kitchen making rum cake and apple pie, and I need to go dig out our stockings so they can be hung by the chimney with care.

I hope you and yours have a wonderful, safe, and happy Holiday that is full of peace and love!!!!



A scene from the movie that we will be watching tonight. My very favourite Christmas movie.

The last of the Christmas knitting.

I am in a happy place with my gifting right now. Things are wrapped and ready. My last project came home yesterday after it's bath and block at a friend's house. (I couldn't do that here because it would have been impossible to hide from the recipient)

Want to see?

Isn't the colour just smashing? The stitch definition is just incredible. So very soft too.

I love the colours here and how they gently shift from shade to shade. The yarn was a treat to work with.
Oh yes. This is a little gift for me. A project that has been languishing in my knitting basket. A woolly shawl just right for snuggling with while reading or watching a movie on a chilly evening.

It is the most wonderful time of the year.......

....to only have three reliable TV channels in one out-of-the-way room of your house. (and one of them is in French)

There are times that I miss having cable. I like The Food Network and programs on BBC Canada.

This time of year I am very thankful that the kids have minimal exposure to advertising. If we had cable the kids might realize that they are being left out of toy trends that are sweeping the nation and have Mommies and Daddies rushing to eBay to pay extortion prices for them.

Case in point:

The D-Rex. My brother phoned me up and asked me to look around my city for one. His boy wants one for Christmas. There are none to be found in three provinces. A quick check of eBay shows many for sale (In original packaging, gift receipt included) . Bidding starts at $50 above retail price.


In other news...

I have been tagged in a meme by Mama Bear.

The rules: Go to your Pictures folder. Find the fifth picture in the fifth folder and post it.

Here you go:
I am not tagging anyone. If you want to play, just let me know in comments and I will add a link you here.

Happy Solstice, everyone!!!

Seven More Sleeps.

Crunch Time.

So, I glanced at my calendar this morning. It seems like I am going to be very very busy this week. The kids each have parties at their schools and they need to bring goodies. I have a preschool board meeting where I need to bring an appetizer. I have the playgroup cookie exchange where I must show up with five dozen cookies. We have the Big Family Pre-Christmas get-together this weekend and I like to bring something yummy for the hostess. (Oh I hope the Archie McPhee order gets here, or the gag gift exchange will be missing a couple of items)

So, here is my baking list:

Rugelach
Chocolate Crinkles for cookie exchange (Done!)
Sugar Plums (make enough for home and hostess gift) (Done!)
Cupcakes for Emm's party (DONE! well, I need to frost them, but that won't take long and I will do it the night before the party)
Spiced rum nut brittle for hostess gift

I am not sure what I am taking to the board meeting, but I am leaning towards a warm dip I can assemble in my crock pot and serve with melba toast or pita chips. (edited to say I am making this cracker spread)

I also have to finish making some Christmas gifts and wrap everything.

Eeek.

EDIT: I can do this. I will bake today. (once I get to the store and buy a vanload of butter, sugar and flour) I can assemble my meeting munchies during Respite time on Tuesday. I can use crafty night tomorrow to assemble a gift. Char's party just requires me to pick up a couple of things while I am at the store getting supplies for baking.
I can do this.

I will worry about Christmas dinner next week.......

How to mail a package in twelve simple steps.

1. Wake up on the morning of the Domestic Package deadline for your country and curse yourself for the line up that will be waiting for you at the Post Office.

2. Try to find the wrapping paper. Fail. Instead find the stack of hand made Christmas cards you meant to mail. Realize that you may as well address them and send them off since you have to go to the PO anyway.

3. Sign and address cards, stopping several times to remove Baby from various precarious postions. eg: Pantry ,where he is dumping dog food into the flour bin, bathroom --where he is scrubbing toilet with cleaning brush...(.let him finish first), table top -where he is trying to steal your coffee, and then help him down when he can't find his step stool.

4. Go to purse to find stamps.

5. Reach into purse and find that your wallet is suspiciously damp. Search through purse and find a half-empty baby bottle without a cap on it. Discover puddles of milk in the bottom of your purse. Dump out purse and thank The Universe that there were no electronic devices in your purse (this time)

6. Wash out purse and contents. Find lost gift card (yay!)

7. Get juice for preschooler.

8. Rescue baby. (again)

9. Dig out old purse. Don't forget to find wrapping paper while in the basement.

10. Fill old purse.

11. Wrap gift. Stamp cards.

12. Pack up kids to go to the Post Office. Thank The Universe (again) that you made it before the line up was horridly long and the Postal Workers were cranky.

The End

Just Like Grandma's

Grandma and I were chatting last week and she mentioned that my Aunt put in a request for Carrot Pudding at Christmas Dinner. Grandma and my Aunt are going Up North to spend Christmas with my Mom and Dad, and I am hosting Christmas Dinner for some In Laws at my house this year. I was momentarily sad that I would miss the famous Carrot Pudding that I have recently developed a taste for (after spending a child hood turning my nose up at it).

Then I had an epiphany. I could make the Carrot Pudding! I could carry on a family tradition!!! I have the power!!!!

Thankfully, I also have Allrecipes and a Grandma who patiently put up with an afternoon of phone calls while I made this for the first time.

Don't fear the potatoes in the pudding
I didn't realize how few ingredients it takes to make a tradition.
I can always use a little help stirring. You need muscles to mix this stuff!
Now it's time for a nice two hour steam bath.
All that is left is to wait until Christmas Day when we get to pour on some delcious sauce and dig in!

Here is the recipe I used. As per Grandma's instructions, I added 1/2 cup softened butter to the pudding mixture and stirred the baking soda into some of the grated potatoes before mixing them in--she says it activates the soda and makes the pudding lighter in texture. I also cut the amount of cloves in half. It just seemed like a lot considering how strong they are. I then packed the mixture into clean pint jars (two for this recipe) topped with seals and rings, and then steamed as per the instructions. Don't forget to put a rack in the bottom of your pot.
Oh, and only fill your jars about 3/4 full so there is room for the pudding to rise.

I filled one jar a little too full so it didn't seal properly. Richard and I tested it last night. The pudding is rich, moist and sweet with just the right amount of spice.

Carrot Pudding

Submitted by: Joyce Rehagen Rated: 5 out of 5 by 7 members

Yields: 7 servings

"Moist, dense and spicy, this steamed pudding features grated carrots and potatoes, a handful of raisins and a fragrant mixture of ground cinnamon, cloves and allspice. Top with a rich and creamy butter sauce for a truly magical dessert."

INGREDIENTS:

1 cup grated carrots 1 cup peeled and shredded potatoes 1 cup white sugar 1 cup raisins 1 cup all-purpose flour 1 teaspoon baking soda 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1 teaspoon ground allspice 1 teaspoon ground cloves 1/2 cup butter 1/2 cup heavy whipping cream 1 cup white sugar 1 1/2 teaspoons vanilla extract

DIRECTIONS:

1.	In a large mixing bowl, combine carrots, potatoes, sugar, raisins, flour, baking soda, ground cinnamon, all spice, and ground cloves. Transfer mixture to a clean 1 pound coffee can. Secure wax paper over the top and place the filled can in a large pot with 2 to 3 inches of water. Cover the pot and bring the water to a simmer.
2.	Steam the cake for 2 hours. Serve warm.
3.	Buttery sauce: In a medium-size pot, combine butter or margarine, cream, sugar, and vanilla. Heat until the mixture is liquid. Spoon mixture over the warm carrot pudding to serve.

Christmas Meme reblog.

Ami tagged me for this meme. I did it last year so here it is again, now with updates.

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?
Wrapping paper--it's more fun for the kids. This year I am also going to experiment with reusable fabric wrappings for the family. The pile of garbage on my floor after Christmas is sickening to me and I want to try to make it smaller this year. I am going to use this tutorial on Furoshiki as a guide.
2. Real tree or artificial?
Artificial. We used to get real trees until I was forever traumatized by a half-dead tree lot tree that had me finding needles in my baseboards for two years afterward. I have fond child hood memories of finding a real tree every winter with my Dad's friend, the forestry teacher from our high school. (Yes, our high school had a conservation program....didn't yours??)
3. When do you put up the tree?
Whenever the mood strikes us.
4. When do you take the tree down?
See number three. I am going to set it up on the front porch this year so Matthew won't climb it, so it will probably get left up longer than if it was in the house.
5. Do you like eggnog?
I like the eggnog lattes at Starbucks--it is too thick and sweet by itself.
6. Favorite gift received as a child?
Hmmm... that would have to be my Barbie RV. I have been trying to find pictures online because mine was much bigger and cooler than the ones you can get now. My Barbies had lots of fun camping in my back yard in it.
7. Do you have a creche?
Yes. I have a cheapo plastic resin one I will use until my kids get old enough to not destroy the one my mom made in ceramics class many years ago. (Hmmm.... I may never get it!!)
8. Hardest person to buy for?
Hubby. He likes things like RAM and hard drives and lap top hinges.
9. Easiest person to buy for?
The kids.
10. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?
A battery charger from my then-boyfriend now-hubbie. He has been briefed on appropriate gifts since then.
11. Mail or email Christmas cards?
I don't send them.
12. Favorite Christmas Movie?
Muppet Christmas Carol
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?
When the mood strikes.
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?
No.
15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas?
Grandma's shortbread and lefse at hubby's aunt's annual Christmas dinner.
16. Clear lights or colored on the tree?
Coloured, but not flashing.
17. Favorite Christmas song?
God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen as sung by Barenaked Ladies and Sarah MacLachlan
18. Travel for Christmas or stay home?
Stay home. How would Santa find us if we traveled?
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeers?
Yep.
20. Angel on the tree top or a star?
Star
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning?
Christmas morning. We open our stockings, have breakfast, and then we do presents.
22. Most annoying thing about this time of year?
The pressure I feel to make or buy The Perfect Thing for everyone on my list. The pressure to edit that list but not leave anyone's feelings hurt. I am also going through a Spiritual Re-alignment this year so I have a lot of conflicting feelings about Christmas and how to make it meaningful this year.
23. What theme or color are you using when you decorate?
Blue and Silver. I have a large collection of Snowmen so they dominate my decorating scheme.
24. Favourite for Christmas Dinner?
This year it will be the dessert Richard is making. (His famous Rum Cake and my friend's Apple pie)
25. What do you want for Christmas this year?
Anything on my Amazon wish list, a new cordless phone....pretty boring stuff.

I am not tagging anyone...if you feel moved to do this meme, let me know in the comments and I will stop by your blog to read your answers. I do like me some good gossip!!! You can just do it in my comments too, if you want. I will be helpful and post the questions without answers at the end of this post for easy cutting and pasting. (That was a good idea, Ami!)

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?

2. Real tree or Artificial?

3. When do you put up the tree?

4. When do you take the tree down?

5. Do you like eggnog?

6. Favorite gift received as a child?

7. Hardest person to buy for?

8. Easiest person to buy for?

9. Do you have a nativity scene?

10. Mail or email Christmas cards?

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?

12. Favorite Christmas Movie?

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas?

16. What decorations are on your tree?

17. Favorite Christmas song?

18. Travel at Christmas or stay at home?

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer?

20. Angel on top of tree or star?

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or Christmas morning?

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year?

23 What theme or color are you using when you decorate?

24. Favorite for Christmas dinner?

25. What do you want for Christmas this year?

Last winter I designed an Advent Wreath for my Sunday School Class. It is one of the many interesting posts you will find at the

Make It From Scratch Carnival

that my friend in blogging Mama Bear is hosting over at her place. Why don't you go check it out? You will find lots of delicious looking recipes and fun craft ideas just in time for the busy Holiday season.

Menu Plan Monday

Well, I fell off the wagon for a couple of weeks and you know what happened? Stress. Late dinners. Grumpy family. Random trips to the grocery store for random things. I also learned what was at the bottom of my freezer, which was a good thing!

So, here we go again.....

Meal 1: Lemon Chicken and Rice

Meal 2: Shepherd's Pie

Meal 3: Apple Pork Chops

Meal 4: Tuna Noodle Casserole

Meal 5: Grilled steak and Mediterranean-style potatoes

Meal 6: Sweet potato stew and Ham Sandwiches

If you want to see what other menu planners are up to check out orgjunkie.com

I also want to mention my two go-to cookbooks. They have never led me wrong and almost everything I have tried in them has been delicious. The food is healthy, ingredients easy to find. They are real gems to have in your kitchen.

Eat Shrink and Be Merry and Crazy Plates were both written by two sisters that care about healthy tasty food that will please your family. They sneak health into everything! I swear by their trick of adding broccoli slaw to tuna when making sandwiches now!